That disapproving look was back in her eyes. Her teacher face. The one that could make you squirm from ten paces, even if you were innocent. And I hadn’t been innocent for years.
Grimes believed in what he did, with no doubts. Though he was older than me by over a decade, I suddenly felt old. Some things mark your soul, not in years but in blood and pain and selling off parts of yourself to get the bad guys, until you finally look in the mirror and aren’t sure which side you’re on anymore. There comes a point when having a badge doesn’t make you the good guy, it just makes you one of the guys. I needed to be one of the good guys, or what the hell was I doing?
You fight so hard, so long, to cut someone out of your heart, but it’s not always your heart that betrays you.
People who don’t camp much think darkness falls from the sky. It doesn’t. Darkness slides from the trees and fills them first, then spreads outward to the open places.
Who’s that with you?’ Stephen asked.
‘Death,’ I said.
‘Trust you to bring death to the ball, ma petite.
I remembered twenty. I’d known everything at twenty. It took me another year to realize I knew nothing. I was still hoping to learn something before I hit thirty, but I wasn’t holding my breath.
Friends don’t count the cost of favors.
Some of the most deeply moral people I knew were least politically correct, because they actually worried about good and evil, not just what they were told was good or bad.
Sometimes the monsters are real, Anita. Sometimes they’re real and the only way to defeat them is to be the bigger monster.’
– Chang Bibi to Anita
Dawn is coming. I can feel it pressing against the darkness like a weight about to tear the night apart.