It seems to me that when you look back at a life – yours or another’s – what you see is a path that weaves into and out of deep shadow. So much is lost. What we use to construct the past is what has remained in the open, a hodgepodge of fleeting glimpses. Our histories, like my father’s current body, are structures built of toothpicks. So what I recall of that last summer in New Bremen is a construct of both what stands in the light and what I imagine in the dark where I cannot see.
Was I bitter? Absolutely. Hurt? You bet your sweet ass I was hurt. Who doesn’t feel a part of their heart break at rejection. You ask yourself every question you can think of, what, why, how come, and then your sadness turns to anger. That’s my favorite part. It drives me, feeds me, and makes one hell of a story.
When love plays your life, and left you nothing but a memory of a broken heart heart,
let the pain runs out in your eyes, it will make you feel better.
Don’t think you’re strong when you’re not, it will only makes you feel weaker.
Be wise, accept, forgive and forget with no regret.
I could do a good imitation of a competent young woman.
Hidden yourself in a hole and dared to burden no one with your grievous friendship? I will have friends, Katsa. I will have a life, even though I carry this burden.
Why am I as I am? To understand that of any person, his whole life, from
Birth must be reviewed. All of our experiences fuse into our personality. Everything that ever happened to us is an ingredient.
Has anybody ever told you you’re an evil woman?” -Reece
“Who, me?” -Erin
“Yes, you.” -Reece
“Li’l ole me?” -Erin
“Sadistic goddess you, yes.” -Reece
“Do you want me to stop?” -Erin
“Do you want me to hold you down and bang you like a screen door?” -Reece
“Don’t threaten the sadistic
goddess, Reece.” -Erin
To one visitor Alexandrian life was “just one continuous revel, not a sweet or gentle revel either, but savage and harsh, a revel of dancers, whistlers, and murderers all combined.
Is there a difference between happiness and inner peace? Yes. Happiness depends on conditions being perceived as positive; inner peace does not.
Life is a miracle. We, all of us are creator beings. We are the joyful choice makers.