Free yourself from the burden of feeling the need to hold on to anything. Let go… you are a part of everything.
Now you know how badly someone wanted you, Charley. Children forget that sometimes. They think of themselves as a burden instead of a wish granted.
The reason you are suffering now, Is because you judged wrongly people whom you should be asking help from. You have judged them based on your own personal past experience and others you have shame them and look down unto them because of your pride.