Like most doctors, the fanciest ones, he seemed offensively healthy, as if he kept the real secret of vitality to himself. He would live forever and people would crumble and die around him. You were supposed to feel like death after seeing him, in terms of your complexion, your posture, your whole body. If necessary, this doctor would eat you to survive.
I’ve never been to a funeral until today. I see dazzling arrangements of red, yellow, and purple flowers with long, green stems. I see a stained-glass window with a white dove, a yellow sun, a blue sky. I see a gold cross, standing tall, shiny, brilliant. And I see black. Black dresses. Black pants. Black shoes. Black bibles. Black is my favorite color. Jackson asked me about it one time.
“Ava, why don’t you like pink? Or yellow? Or blue?
During our time together in this place Holly didn’t outright avoid me or treat me rudely. But she wasn’t-how do women like to put it? She wasn’t emotionally available to me.
None of us suffers as much as we should, or loves as much as we say. Love is the first lie; wisdom the last.
The man now retrieved a linen cloth and stuffed it deep into Katherine’s mouth. “Death,
How many of us suffered to death?
How many of them gained more wealth?
How many of us mourned?
How many of them earned?
How many times we suffered such a pain?
How many times they will do this again?
They are Cruel
We don’t have to be.
Loss taught me about the frailty and transient nature of man. It taught me humility. It taught me about the urgency of service, of touching lives, of mentoring, of legacy. Of making hay while there is still sunshine and life.
And it is a profound consolation, perhaps the only one, to this haunted animal that wastes most of a long and ghostly life wandering the future and the past on its hind legs, looking for meanings, only to see in the eyes of others of its kind that it must die.
Death for the Christian is the doorway to heaven’s glory. Because of Christ’s resurrection we can joyously say with Paul, “Where, O death, is your victory?
Successful people will tell you that they do not wonder if they are going to succeed. They know they will. It’s just a matter of when.