I wish someone would promise me that nothing is meaningless,
If knowledge is lacking, your destruction is inevitable.
NOTE TO SELF – BOOMERANG EFFECT
My words, thoughts and deeds have
a boomerang effect.
So be-careful what you send out!
I’ve started to hate this city, this country, all these STUPID FUCKING PEOPLE.
I can’t think of anything more disheartening than living a life without a clear purpose.
True friends never turn you away when all you need is someone to talk to. Ever. It’s not the only thing that helps, but it’s the only thing that works. Real friends never walk away, letting you slip deeper into the pit of despair.
I was depressed, but that was a side issue. This was more like closing up shop, or, say, having a big garage sale, where you look at everything you’ve bought in your life, and you remember how much it meant to you, and now you just tag it for a quarter and watch ’em carry it off, and you don’t care. That’s more like how it was.
depression in its major stages possesses no quickly available remedy: failure of alleviation is one of the most distressing factors of the disorder as it reveals itself to the victim, and one that helps situate it squarely in the category of grave diseases.
From this vantage point he came to a realization that everything that had happened to him before this had been a journey upward through time, everything that occurred after it a descent. If he could not control his fate, why be born?
Lingering, bottled-up anger never reveals the ‘true colors’ of an individual. It, on the contrary, becomes all mixed up, rotten, confused, forms a highly combustible, chemical compound then explodes as something foreign, something very different than one’s natural self.