Saying sorry doesn’t mean there isn’t guilt & forgiving doesn’t mean that the pain is gone.
So I let my shame own me, kill me, wilt me away into a thousand dead flakes, knowing if I kept it all in, she would never have to learn the dirtiness that was forever inside me–the bad, the ugly, the twisted. She could go on living her life happy, just like she deserved.
Don’t allow yourself to feel guilty about wanting deep and endless love, amazing sex and opportunities that will change your life. Expect these things – work for them and don’t ever stop until they’re yours.
God does not regret saving you. There is no sin which you commit which is beyond the cross of Christ.
We have an obligation to feel guilty.” The words came out of her lips as if she were reciting an elegy. “Guilty. Because we kill the ones we love.
The thoroughly guilty man has an advantage over all of us; he cannot be found more guilty of anything, since he has already found himself guilty of everything. This may sound like an absurdity – causing oneself extreme pain in order not to feel any number of little pains of lesser guilts and shames, but it has its own logic. A man more easily adapts to what he inflicts upon himself; as to his own judgement, he is already committed to it and willing to live with it.
You invoke a new future
when you envision your past
in the light of your present.
I always ended up doing things I didn’t want to do today just so I didn’t regret not doing them tomorrow.
12 Things To Ditch For A Great Day
Fear of embarrassment
Urge to one-up others
Your comfort zone
It happened. It was awful. You aren’t perfect. That’s all there is. Don’t confuse your grief with guilt.”
We stay in the silence and the loneliness of the otherwise empty dormitory for a few more minutes, and I try to let her words work themselves into me.