You don’t have to pretend with me, you know.’ He reaches out and tucks a strand of my hair behind my ear. His expression is so open and honest I feel it like a sucker punch. ‘I used to pretend, all the time, so I can spot it a mile away. If you’re feeling shit, then just say so. I don’t need to know the reason, it might be none of my business-‘
‘I’m feeling shit.

When I thought about my old friends Linus Lucas and Theo, I realized they were not really criminals either. They were like me. We were just acting out the strangest, tragic little roles, pretending to be criminals in order to get by. We gave very convincing performances.

And I wasn’t playing a role – I was trying to be myself.
But the harder I was striving, the more I was realizing that I had probably lost that ‘myself’ somewhere between two perfectly performed roles…

And I wasn’t playing a role – I was trying to be myself.
But the harder I was striving, the more I was realizing that I had probably lost that ‘myself’ somewhere between two perfectly performed roles…

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