One does not surrender a life in an instant. That which is lifelong can only be surrendered in a lifetime.
Anoint me with “Fresh Oil” O God! Mold me and make me…totally for Your use! You are the potter, I am the clay. Amen
We know enough to know that all of this is not quite right. And we know enough to know that settling for what’s not quite right is quite wrong.
To get over the past, you first have to accept that the past is over. No matter how many times you revisit it, analyze it, regret it, or sweat it…it’s over. It can hurt you no more.
Giving up everything must mean giving over everything to kingdom purposes, surrendering everything to further the one central cause, loosening our grip on everything. For some of us, this may mean ridding ourselves of most of our possessions. But for all of us it should mean dedicating everything we retain to further the kingdom. (For true disciples, however, it cannot mean hoarding or using kingdom assets self-indulgently.)
No matter how much you stress or obsess about the past or future, you can’t change either one. In the present is where your power lies.
All I want in this life are three…
a moonlit beach on the starlit sea,
a breath of opium,
Surrender isn’t a one-time event but a moment-by-moment choice.
Soon madness has worn you down. It’s easier to do what it says than argue. In this way, it takes over your mind. You no longer know where it ends and you begin. You believe anything it says. You do what it tells you, no matter how extreme or absurd. If it says you’re worthless, you agree. You plead for it to stop. You promise to behave. You are on your knees before it, and it laughs.
It is a state of peace to be able to accept things as they are. This is to be at home in our own lives. We see that this universe is much too big to hold on to, but it is the perfect size for letting go. Our hearts and minds become that big, and we can actually let go. This is the gift of equanimity.